I know this is not something that one wants to think about. But recently around me and church, a SAHM husband died and left her with three children, a woman has passed away and left three young children behind. A woman has been diagnosed with a fatal illness and she only has a few years left. A close friend of us is now in hospital, people have been coming in and out of hospital.
And I could not help but think how sad and scary it all is, as I am forced to reflect on my own life. What if it is me today? If I become severely ill will I be able to handle it. It is hard to think about it – but I can only pray and trust God to not give me more than I can handle and if He takes me to an unfamiliar illness, that I can find the strength to know that God is with me.
What if I should die today – what is going to happen to my kids? I never thought about this really, sometimes I think I will live until a ripe old age and see my kids get married and hold my grandchildren in my arms. But what if I’m not that fortunate?
I pray, if I have not prayed this prayer yet, I pray it now. That God would send people in my children’s lives that would make and impact on there lives. That God would send man and woman that have a desire to lead my children and teach them about Him about and His ways. If my husband should take another woman (this is really hard to comprehend). That she will love my children as much as I and even more, that she will teach them about God and plant His word on the tablets of there hearts. If there is one desire I have for my kids it’s that they grow up to be Godly children.
What if is should die today? Will I be ready?
Letters J, D, P, and B
8 hours ago
This is a great post. I wanted to share something with you:
ReplyDeleteI grew up with my step mother. My mom gave up custody of us when we were very very little, and I honestly consider my step mom my mom. I've always called her mom. She is who I call when I need advice, a shoulder, or just a friend to chat with. She loves me just as much as her own two biological children. I never felt 2nd best. My dad found a good wife in her, but I found an amazing mother, who loved us just as much (if not more) than my "real" mom did. God put her in our lives, and if the situation ever came up, I have full faith that he would put someone just as amazing in the lives of your children.
I realize this is off-topic (am enjoying your writing, though) but wanted to thank you for the kind comment you left me at my blog.
ReplyDeleteMany thanks. :) And just to say, I'll be back to read more about you.
I'm so sorry all that craziness is going on around you. It definitely would cause one to think about dying. It's a topic on my mind way too much. I was very ill for a number of months after Logan was born nearly 3 years ago. I'm fine now but the thoughts are still there. Every day.
ReplyDeleteI really like your prayer and I hope it offers you some solace.
On a side note, I really like your new blog design. Very fancy!
I like your prayer, it says it all.
ReplyDeleteVery poignant post. I too hope more than anything that my children grow up with a heart for God. That's something that will help them through anything and no one can ever take away.
ReplyDeleteSaw your comment on Before the Baby Wakes and knew I must come by, as I ignore my children while typing this very comment!
See you around!
Mox
this is my absolute biggest fear. It sometimes sends me into shivers if I think about it too long, so I don't. I have done some things to prepare, but I just end up in tears. So heartbreaking the stories you told.
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